ANTICIPATE THE BRIGHTNESS

More often than not I choose to view difficulties in life as an opportunity for growth. Throughout the struggle, I am in a state of anticipation, knowing that the fight cannot exist forever unless I resign myself to hopelessness, which is an option. It should be noted that hopelessness is only a part of our […]

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THE GRASS

I fight each day to be a meaningful person. I do not wish to take from anyone, only give the small amount within myself. The point of life is to be useful. The hope in death is that I’ve given all of myself to the world so that there is nothing left to miss. This […]

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BETWEEN YOU AND ME

I WAS YOUNG AND I WAS A LOVER OF ALL THINGS OBSCURE AND UNFIT FOR THE WORLD MY EYES LONGING AT ONCE TO CAPTURE WHAT MAKES A MAN AND WHO TAKES THE PEARL ONLY THREE-YEARS OF AGE YET I RECALL NATURE IT BECKONED OUR EVERY MOVE THROUGHOUT THE LAND HIS EYES FOCUSED ON HIS HANDS AND HIS […]

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EVERYTHING IN ITS RIGHT PLACE

I think in many ways that even though the pages of our future are still blank, even though we are still confounded by the unending choices we make that will forever decide our future, even with all of this uncertainty, the pages of our future seem to be written in invisible ink. It’s as if […]

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MY HEART

“There are two things children should get from their parents: roots and wings.” — Johann Wolfgang von Goethe I don’t deserve to have the mother I do. I don’t mean that in a self-deprecating way; Rather I find my mother to be such a rarity that it doesn’t seem fair to others that I ended […]

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Bravery is Bold | Boldness has Genius

I have documented my mental illness well here on my blog – this little blog I started on an airplane while trying to distract myself from yet another crippling panic attack. I began writing because for most of my life I have felt alone and I needed to connect with people. Throughout my life, I […]

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100

“The light dove, in free flight cutting through the air the resistance of which it feels, could get the idea that it could do even better in airless space.” Immanuel Kant I fought this world for so long and the world never even knew I was upset. I have given up this fight and have found […]

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LEAVING THE LONESOME BATTLE BEHIND

It has come to my attention that some people think I am too hard on myself; Doctors, therapists, friends, family, complete strangers…Ok maybe I’m too self-critical — I call it self-awareness but no need for semantics, I am willing to concede to this kind lot that I am a bit hard on myself. I suppose not many writers […]

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Don’t give them everything you’ve got

People will ask you for everything don’t give it to them They will ask you to share your deepest desires with them hold on to them They will want you to know it is safe to speak to them speak sparingly Others will ask you to tell them how you feel do not lie | […]

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These things take time | I have time

The greatest challenge is learning to work alongside yourself. If you can figure out how to do this successfully everything else is a breeze. February 9, 2014, is the last time I had a drink. In a couple of days I will be celebrating my one year anniversary – I don’t know what to say. Lately I have been […]

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